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jaygies:

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jaygies:

About a month ago I got one of Shilin’s books of her comic, Carciphona, and it is a beautiful book! I love it so much. Holding that book in my hands gave me the resolve that I want to hold my own book one day. I’m gonna do it. Even if it kills me I’m going to make my own comic book. I don’t care…

Hello you! I read it! 

I really love this. And I’m here to tell you, you can do this. 
I’m not a fast worker either, not by nature anyways. It’s taken me years of work to actually get my projects done within a reasonable amount of time. The first commissions I was getting as a younger teenager took me six months to complete. Now the most I go is a month and at this point it’s more like two weeks if all goes smoothly. (These are whole paintings or drawings though. :3) 

Also, it’s so good to have a plan! It’s gonna get hard though. (I know, damper right?) But seriously, it’s going to be a pain in the butt on some days for you to stick to your plan. Doing NaNo for three years has taught me the measure and the value of discipline. Like lately, I am not inspired. Writing this second book has been incredibly difficult. But I’ve taught myself to be disciplined. I have no excuses. It doesn’t matter if it sucks. I write. It’s my job to write. Even though at this point I’m not getting a cent for it, it’s my job because I said it was and you show up every day for your job or you get fired. 

Period.

So I guess what I’m saying is, even when it’s hard, if you can sit down and make yourself do it, you’re becoming a better person. You’re becoming a stronger person. A person capable of doing stuff they don’t want to do when it’s a pain is a person who can do anything they set their freaking mind to! Keep at it! Work hard and I guarantee you you will improve on the things you want to, and you’ll reach your goals! And don’t be afraid to suck at stuff, or of bad days where everything just goes wrong. 
Because they’ll happen. But that doesn’t mean you’re not moving forward. 

I’m in a place in my life where I’m beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s the weirdest thing… and it was hard getting here, and I still have a long way to go before I come out of this particular tunnel. But I did it. I’m doing it! 

YOU CAN TOO! 

Also, I’d love to talk to you about art stuff sometime. We’ve talked a lot about horses! And writing, but lets definitely talk about art sometime! And more about writing because we can. (And there will always be more horses because without horses is not life. hehe) 

:D Okay, that was longer than I expected. 

I shall prance off now to rid my hair of Severus Snape’s greasy-ness.  Carry on! Cheers! 

Thank you so much!  Your reply really means a lot to me!  While doing camp nanowrimo I have experienced a bit of what you are talking about.  It is really a downer and hard on the days when I feel like my productivity or work isn’t up to par.  But like you said you can’t give up and you gotta push through it!

I hope that I can take your advice at heart because I really want to do this.  Before I have relied on motivation, what a fleeting thing, to get anything done and that’s not the way to do it!  It’s through discipline not motivation that gets things done.

And yes!  I’d love to talk to you about art too! :)  I know you’re busy for the next couple of weeks but let me know when you can go riding again. 

You’re welcome! 

And yeah, motivation is super fleeting. I’ve learned I can’t rely on it! Which is hard because having an artist brain makes focusing without motivation difficult. But with practice, I am proof learning to be disciplined can be done! 

The only times I’ve really been unable to make that work is when I’m in my very lowest lows. I suffer from some anxiety and depression and there have been times where I am as useless as the g in lasagna. But I always come out of it and get back on the horse, so to speak. :) 

Yay art talks! Next week I’m free every day, except Saturday. If any of those days work for you. :D (except now I’m confused because I’m not actually sure if anything is happening on the 26th… my brain.. is a fog. lol. I’ll get back to you on that!) 


I've Been Thinking

jaygies:

About a month ago I got one of Shilin’s books of her comic, Carciphona, and it is a beautiful book! I love it so much. Holding that book in my hands gave me the resolve that I want to hold my own book one day. I’m gonna do it. Even if it kills me I’m going to make my own comic book. I don’t care…

Hello you! I read it! 

I really love this. And I’m here to tell you, you can do this. 
I’m not a fast worker either, not by nature anyways. It’s taken me years of work to actually get my projects done within a reasonable amount of time. The first commissions I was getting as a younger teenager took me six months to complete. Now the most I go is a month and at this point it’s more like two weeks if all goes smoothly. (These are whole paintings or drawings though. :3) 

Also, it’s so good to have a plan! It’s gonna get hard though. (I know, damper right?) But seriously, it’s going to be a pain in the butt on some days for you to stick to your plan. Doing NaNo for three years has taught me the measure and the value of discipline. Like lately, I am not inspired. Writing this second book has been incredibly difficult. But I’ve taught myself to be disciplined. I have no excuses. It doesn’t matter if it sucks. I write. It’s my job to write. Even though at this point I’m not getting a cent for it, it’s my job because I said it was and you show up every day for your job or you get fired. 

Period.

So I guess what I’m saying is, even when it’s hard, if you can sit down and make yourself do it, you’re becoming a better person. You’re becoming a stronger person. A person capable of doing stuff they don’t want to do when it’s a pain is a person who can do anything they set their freaking mind to! Keep at it! Work hard and I guarantee you you will improve on the things you want to, and you’ll reach your goals! And don’t be afraid to suck at stuff, or of bad days where everything just goes wrong. 
Because they’ll happen. But that doesn’t mean you’re not moving forward. 

I’m in a place in my life where I’m beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s the weirdest thing… and it was hard getting here, and I still have a long way to go before I come out of this particular tunnel. But I did it. I’m doing it! 

YOU CAN TOO! 

Also, I’d love to talk to you about art stuff sometime. We’ve talked a lot about horses! And writing, but lets definitely talk about art sometime! And more about writing because we can. (And there will always be more horses because without horses is not life. hehe) 

:D Okay, that was longer than I expected. 

I shall prance off now to rid my hair of Severus Snape’s greasy-ness.  Carry on! Cheers! 

So I’ve been doing Camp NaNoWriMo this month and I’m sitting here writing again this morning and I’m just feeling really astounded at my progress and also really extremely grateful for everything.
It’s been a really busy month and I feel frustrated over not having more free time, because I also have a commission I’m working on, and real life is just real life.
BUT! 
First off, I have commissions. I have money coming in. It’s not a whole lot, but I have what I need and people like my work and that’s amazing!
Second, I wrote a book. I FINISHED the first draft of a novel I’ve been working on for like 8 or something years, and started over on twice.

I WROTE A BOOK. 


And now I’m 30 pages into the sequel! By the time the month is over I will be at least 100 pages into the sequel, which is a 6th of the way done (if it’s as big as the first book is now.) 
That’s amazing. I am proud of myself. And I have a freaking right to be! 

When July is over I will go back to the first book and start revising, getting it ready to send out into the world for publication. I’m going to do that.

I feel like I can actually see where I’m going in life right now. And I’m doing something that I love. It’s incredible. I’m so grateful. 

I’ve been sort of lost since I was 18, wondering if the things I was doing and that I loved doing, would actually have a purpose. It took a lot of years, but I can see that everything had a purpose,and does have a purpose, and sometimes it can take a REALLY long time, but we’re all going somewhere worth going. :) 

It’s still hard. Writing every day is really hard for me. Working on commissions every day is hard for me. But even though it’s hard I still enjoy these things, as weird as that is. I love what I’m doing. 

Yeah.I just had to share this stuff. Back to the book! 

My character, Melody Harper, in some fancy costumes. She’s my original character from the Pirates of the Caribbean universe.
I had a lot of fun with this. More fun than I’ve had in ages. I’ll likely make more costumes for her, and I hope to do more dolls, of other characters. (Including Captain Jack Sparrow to go with her because FUN.)

I followed Altalamatox ’s fabulous tutorial, which you can see here: http://fav.me/d7inb54

She’s in my current fanfic, the Mirrors Edge (A Pirates of the Caribbean fic, obviously. ;) ) You can read it here

loserfanclub:

aviculor:

savvymavvy:

legitknits:

mcguirkthejerk:

kristinethequeen:

jimmysnowvakk:

This is what pisses me off about Tumblr. You all say you’re so accepting and you don’t want to offend anyone, but then thousands of people reblog something like this because Christians aren’t the minority. You wouldn’t want to offend a Muslim, and if this were offensive to them or another minority, there’d be so many comments about it. But everyone is completely fine with offending a non minority. “You’re not oppressed, you can’t talk!” You know what? I’m a Christian and this offends me and my faith, but nobody’s going to care about that because I’m not oppressed. Tumblr is hypocritical and that needs to stop.

Amen to the comment

Oh my precious lambs:

Examine why you are being offended. Because this is literally how a sunset works. There is not room for debate on this question. There is less room for debate on this than there is on just about any other thing. We are not reblogging because Christians aren’t the minority, dear ones. We are reblogging because after the debate a few days ago, creationists were given the opportunity to pose a question for non-creationists. One of these questions was:

"How can you explain a sunset if their is no god?" (sp.)

Questions, we assume, are posed so that someone might answer them. And yes, there is an answer of how exactly one can explain a sunset given the absence of a divine force. Now, you can certainly posit that God is the creator of all things and so all things came from him including the sun and light refraction and anthrax and kittens and famine and all that jazz.

But you don’t get to deny that THIS IS HOW A SUNSET WORKS, and of the necessary elements of this equation (Sun + Atmosphere + Angle = Sunset), God is not one of them. That’s because everything else is an observable phenomenon, and God is not. You can explain a sunset without God. You can go ahead and believe that God’s part of it all. That’s cool. Lots of people believe stuff like that, and I encourage you to delve into the ways that people make science and their faith jive. But if you are offended by being shown the basic scientific principals behind a sunset, you must be offended by damn near everything. And that seems exhausting. 

In short:

People getting butthurt over science, fucking love it.

"Stop teaching science, it offends me" 

"Stop teaching facts, they offend me"

^This. I am a Christian. My belief in God is part of who I am and it runs deep. I am a very spiritual person. HOWEVER, Science is REAL. And it’s RAD. 
In my view, God invented science. 
It’s totally cool if you disagree! But getting offended when you a Christian given a scientific reason is silly. Because again, Science is a thing, and it’s a freaking awesome amazing thing. 

sam-bragg:

Please Help

http://www.gofundme.com/new-tablet

Hey everyone I am looking to get a little help to purchase a used cintiq tablet for my freelance work. My old tablet pc is on its last legs and I need a replacement so that I can keep freelancing to help support my family. 

Normally this purchase would have been easy for us to afford but we are having our first baby in the next 2-3 weeks and he has cost, and will cost, a fortune. 

I am going to offer reward levels for certain amounts we receive because I do not want to just take free money. If you can give even a dollar it would be greatly appreciated. I love drawing so much and I cannot imagine not being able to do so.

Please help us out if you can.

Thank you so much for your time.

Thoughts

Given my experiences of the last month or so, and spurred by a long conversation via phone with a friend, I have some words. 

I believe in patience. 
I believe in hard work.
I believe in the power of positive thinking.
I also believe sometimes you need to take a day to just exist, just be, when things are hard. 
I believe in making conscious decisions to change things we don’t like, even in small ways. 
I believe in empathy without enablement. 
I believe in the ability to say no.
I believe in the importance of taking care of ones self. 
I believe in stopping to appreciate the little things around you.
I believe in doing everything you can to speak positively in every regard to those whom you care for most, always. 
I believe in learning to discipline oneself to work hard, even when it is hardest. 
I believe in faith. 
I believe in God. 
I believe creativity, and allowing the freedom of it in your own self. 
I believe in not speaking negatively about oneself, about complimenting and loving oneself, always! Especially out loud. 
I believe in forgiving oneself. 

I’m taking better care of myself, emotionally and mentally. Sometimes days are still hard, I still get gloomy and sad and depressed. But I’m learning to change my own thinking. I’m learning to remember and remind myself I have value, even when those feelings come over me. I am learning it is okay to feel sad and depressed, but that it is not an excuse to ever be unkind or negative to others, or myself. 

Reader, followers, fellow wonderful, brilliant beautiful people of the world, YOU have value. You are worth loving, worth taking care of. You are talented, even if you don’t know how yet, life is full of discovering yourself and learning to be who you are. You are allowed to be patient with yourself. you are allowed to say no to things. You are allowed to say yes to things. You are allowed to be you. YOU ARE ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY FOR THE SAKE OF JUST BEING HAPPY.

YOU HAVE VALUE. 

I love you all. I hope you have a beautiful night, morning, evening, day, week, everything. 



spires:

Urban outfitters is ripping me off with the help of a party named ‘Bambam’. This is taken from my original work tryypyzoyd. I’m furious. PLEASE SHARE TO HELP.
http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?id=30672646&parentid=BRANDS

I will respond in the post to any inquiries: I emailed them and I’m waiting to hear back.

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